Last night at about 12 midnight I was awaken from my sleep. I sat in the dark wondering to myself, why am I awake when my body wanted to sleep. I laid there and stared at the clock, 12:30 went by then 1am, and about 1:30am I finally felt sleepy again. I closed my eyes and began to drift away.
At about 2am, my cell phone beeped, indicating I had a text message. I was a little annoyed but I got up and looked at the phone. It was one of those chain text were they want you to pass it on to 5 to 10 people or else you get some sort of bad luck. I hate it when people send me these text or email. I never pass them on and I don’t believe in bad luck. I believe there is a reason for everything that happens to me. As you can imagine I was not very happy to know that I was awaken by this text. I cuddled back into bed trying to fall asleep. For some reason I just couldn’t sleep-3:30am, 4:30am came and I was still wide awake staring at the clock, I wondered if I would ever get some sleep before I have to get up at 6am for work. Then 6am came and I had to get up. I was tired, sleepy and annoyed at not getting any rest and having to go to work in this below zero weather.
Got to work still annoyed and didn’t want to be bother by anyone. I wanted to just stay by myself and do my work. Of course that didn’t happen. As soon as I walked through the door, I had to attend meetings that were scheduled at the last minute, I was assigned to projects that needed a fast turn around and I had to work with the vendor to get it done properly. Oh don’t forget I still have to work on the projects I was already assigned. Then on top of that my manager wanted me to complete my performance report and hand it in before 5pm. I felt like screaming. All I wanted to do was sleep and relax, which could not be accomplished at work.
Trying to be calm, I took a deep breath and logged on to my computer. There were plenty of emails, none of which I really wanted to read but had to. In about ten minutes my first meeting was about to begin, so I picked up my notebook, pen and off I went. Going to a corporate meeting can be quite interesting sometimes to see them talk about the same thing over and over, without ever coming to an agreement. Being frustrated with the same issue for the past three weeks I gave my opinion on what I think we can do. To my surprise I was assigned the task of completing the testing I mentioned—I wished I had kept my mouth closed. Finally the meeting was over but I had to rush to another one. The second meeting was a little bit more interesting, people started arguing with each other—that helped to wake me up a little.
As the day went on I still felt tired and was watching the clock to make sure I make it out of the office exactly at 4:30pm, but looking at the pile of work on my desk that almost seemed impossible. By 3pm, I was finished with most of the assignments but still had to start the testing and setup the machines to run over the weekend. I went to the lab, swipe my card and got a ‘access denied’ message—I was annoyed because the security office is all the way on the other side of the building. I took a deep breath and walked over to the office to get my access renewed. Walking over to security couple people asked me to take a look at their reports before I go home. I tried to make excuses not to do it but got stuck with it anyway.
Finally got to the security office and there was a long line. I patiently stood and waited for my turn. By the time I got to the desk it was already 3:55pm. The security officer’s phone ranged, it was an emergency and he had to go take care of it. I had to rejoin the line- which had about 5 people. I tried not to look frustrated but I was. I had to go through all of this just for them to select a permission option in my profile. The two security officers in the room seemed to be taking their slow time—because I stood in the same spot for almost 20minutes. Looking at the clock it was already 4:30pm and I had 3 more people in front of me. Normally there is no one in the security office, why do we have so many people today. They all seem to have some sort of issue with their badge, so at least I wasn’t alone. Finally, it was my turn again. I went up to the desk and told them that I need access to the lab to perform the testing. They asked me few questions, and then picked up the phone to call my manager to confirm that I need access to the lab. My manager of course is never in his office, so there was no response. I tried to tell them that I always had access before to do my testing today was the first day I swipe my card and was denied access. For some reason my portfolio didn’t show that, so I had to wait till my manager return the call. Oh I was beyond frustrated. I started to think who had access that could let me in the lab. It was already after 5pm and almost everyone was headed out the door. I couldn’t leave and go home without setting up the machines in the lab to run the test. Testing could only be done nights and weekends, so I couldn’t do anything but wait. At 5:30pm, the phone ranged my manger confirmed I need permanent access to that lab. I was relieved; they changed my permission for my badge. I ran back over to the lab to find out that some of the equipment I need to setup the test was being used by someone else. That meant I had to get spare equipments from the storage room, walked over to the room—my badge didn’t work. I was about to kick the door off because I really didn’t want to go back to the security office to be granted permission. I didn’t understand why all my permissions were erased from going into areas I visit daily.
I walked back to the security office the man smiled when he saw me return and told me that the new guy this morning was be training on how to grant and disable permissions and they were using my profile, and apparently they forgot to turn back on my permissions. So I told him to give me complete access because I didn’t appreciate them playing around with my profile. After the change I ran back to the storage room. Finally, I was able to get the equipments and setup the area for testing. I configured the machines to continue testing till Monday morning at 5am. That way when I return on Monday I would have enough data to start my analysis of what might be the issue.
Got back to my desk, checked my email and noticed that I still had to review the two engineering reports. At this time I had stopped looking at the clock because I knew I was probably the only engineer still working. I sat there and began reviewing the reports; ten minutes into reviewing and my eyes were about to close. I got up went to the bathroom washed my face, came back and drank some water. Of course that didn’t really help but at least I was able to get off the computer. I sat back at my desk and tried to stay focus because my signature of approval on these reports will determine if I will still have a job next week or not. For some reason people in the company believe that all engineers are extremely smart people, that knows everything and they take everything we say seriously. Therefore, I had to make sure my recommendations and approvals were accurate and fitting for the situation.
At about 2am, my cell phone beeped, indicating I had a text message. I was a little annoyed but I got up and looked at the phone. It was one of those chain text were they want you to pass it on to 5 to 10 people or else you get some sort of bad luck. I hate it when people send me these text or email. I never pass them on and I don’t believe in bad luck. I believe there is a reason for everything that happens to me. As you can imagine I was not very happy to know that I was awaken by this text. I cuddled back into bed trying to fall asleep. For some reason I just couldn’t sleep-3:30am, 4:30am came and I was still wide awake staring at the clock, I wondered if I would ever get some sleep before I have to get up at 6am for work. Then 6am came and I had to get up. I was tired, sleepy and annoyed at not getting any rest and having to go to work in this below zero weather.
Got to work still annoyed and didn’t want to be bother by anyone. I wanted to just stay by myself and do my work. Of course that didn’t happen. As soon as I walked through the door, I had to attend meetings that were scheduled at the last minute, I was assigned to projects that needed a fast turn around and I had to work with the vendor to get it done properly. Oh don’t forget I still have to work on the projects I was already assigned. Then on top of that my manager wanted me to complete my performance report and hand it in before 5pm. I felt like screaming. All I wanted to do was sleep and relax, which could not be accomplished at work.
Trying to be calm, I took a deep breath and logged on to my computer. There were plenty of emails, none of which I really wanted to read but had to. In about ten minutes my first meeting was about to begin, so I picked up my notebook, pen and off I went. Going to a corporate meeting can be quite interesting sometimes to see them talk about the same thing over and over, without ever coming to an agreement. Being frustrated with the same issue for the past three weeks I gave my opinion on what I think we can do. To my surprise I was assigned the task of completing the testing I mentioned—I wished I had kept my mouth closed. Finally the meeting was over but I had to rush to another one. The second meeting was a little bit more interesting, people started arguing with each other—that helped to wake me up a little.
As the day went on I still felt tired and was watching the clock to make sure I make it out of the office exactly at 4:30pm, but looking at the pile of work on my desk that almost seemed impossible. By 3pm, I was finished with most of the assignments but still had to start the testing and setup the machines to run over the weekend. I went to the lab, swipe my card and got a ‘access denied’ message—I was annoyed because the security office is all the way on the other side of the building. I took a deep breath and walked over to the office to get my access renewed. Walking over to security couple people asked me to take a look at their reports before I go home. I tried to make excuses not to do it but got stuck with it anyway.
Finally got to the security office and there was a long line. I patiently stood and waited for my turn. By the time I got to the desk it was already 3:55pm. The security officer’s phone ranged, it was an emergency and he had to go take care of it. I had to rejoin the line- which had about 5 people. I tried not to look frustrated but I was. I had to go through all of this just for them to select a permission option in my profile. The two security officers in the room seemed to be taking their slow time—because I stood in the same spot for almost 20minutes. Looking at the clock it was already 4:30pm and I had 3 more people in front of me. Normally there is no one in the security office, why do we have so many people today. They all seem to have some sort of issue with their badge, so at least I wasn’t alone. Finally, it was my turn again. I went up to the desk and told them that I need access to the lab to perform the testing. They asked me few questions, and then picked up the phone to call my manager to confirm that I need access to the lab. My manager of course is never in his office, so there was no response. I tried to tell them that I always had access before to do my testing today was the first day I swipe my card and was denied access. For some reason my portfolio didn’t show that, so I had to wait till my manager return the call. Oh I was beyond frustrated. I started to think who had access that could let me in the lab. It was already after 5pm and almost everyone was headed out the door. I couldn’t leave and go home without setting up the machines in the lab to run the test. Testing could only be done nights and weekends, so I couldn’t do anything but wait. At 5:30pm, the phone ranged my manger confirmed I need permanent access to that lab. I was relieved; they changed my permission for my badge. I ran back over to the lab to find out that some of the equipment I need to setup the test was being used by someone else. That meant I had to get spare equipments from the storage room, walked over to the room—my badge didn’t work. I was about to kick the door off because I really didn’t want to go back to the security office to be granted permission. I didn’t understand why all my permissions were erased from going into areas I visit daily.
I walked back to the security office the man smiled when he saw me return and told me that the new guy this morning was be training on how to grant and disable permissions and they were using my profile, and apparently they forgot to turn back on my permissions. So I told him to give me complete access because I didn’t appreciate them playing around with my profile. After the change I ran back to the storage room. Finally, I was able to get the equipments and setup the area for testing. I configured the machines to continue testing till Monday morning at 5am. That way when I return on Monday I would have enough data to start my analysis of what might be the issue.
Got back to my desk, checked my email and noticed that I still had to review the two engineering reports. At this time I had stopped looking at the clock because I knew I was probably the only engineer still working. I sat there and began reviewing the reports; ten minutes into reviewing and my eyes were about to close. I got up went to the bathroom washed my face, came back and drank some water. Of course that didn’t really help but at least I was able to get off the computer. I sat back at my desk and tried to stay focus because my signature of approval on these reports will determine if I will still have a job next week or not. For some reason people in the company believe that all engineers are extremely smart people, that knows everything and they take everything we say seriously. Therefore, I had to make sure my recommendations and approvals were accurate and fitting for the situation.
At about 7:15pm, I was ready to go home. Packed my things up and headed for the door. As I walked closer to my car I noticed my windows were covered with frost. It was freezing outside and I had to stand there and scrub the frost off my windows. Oh I wanted the day to end so bad! I started the car and began scrubbing. In about 5 minutes I was done and started on my way home. Finally got to my apartment but now I didn’t want to sleep—I was wide away. So after dinner, I sat done and wrote this blog entry. How could this be?
My day seemed bad because my mind frame was messed up and from my point of view everything was a bother or a pain. Today meetings and workload wasn’t much different from any other day. But I felt it more today because I came there frustrated and annoyed at not getting any sleep.
What do you think was the root cause of why my day was not so smooth? Was it the chain text? Was it the devil? Was it me? Was everyone plotting against me? To be honest I don’t think it was none of them. I believe that the Lord was trying to show me something and speak to me but because I was so caught up in my own wants, I missed it. As you read through my story I didn’t mention the accidents I missed by staying late at work, I didn’t mention how happy my co-workers were that I was able to bring them one step closer to solving an issue that will determine the companies budget next month. I didn’t mention how happy the two people were to know that they will be able to complete their assignment on time by allowing me to review their reports before Monday. I didn’t mention that my manager was proud of me stepping up and taking care of the assignments given to me. I didn’t mention any of those things because my mind wasn’t able to see it until now. My day might have not went the way I wanted it to but it went the way it needed to go to work in my favor. That was God working behind the scenes the whole time but I didn’t see it. While I was going through, I thought it was the devil trying to ruin my day. He might have had his moments but most of it wasn’t.
Therefore, my encouragement to you when you might have one of those days when nothing goes the way you want it to—remember God might be changing it around to work in your favor and He might even be trying to teach you a lesson. Today I learned a lot of patience; I learned to deal with things under a lot of pressure and to take what I do seriously. Because I kept a lot of my emotions inside, people were amazed that I didn’t scream under the pressure and issues.
Take a look at your day and see the message it was sending your way—it might be a message from God.
My day seemed bad because my mind frame was messed up and from my point of view everything was a bother or a pain. Today meetings and workload wasn’t much different from any other day. But I felt it more today because I came there frustrated and annoyed at not getting any sleep.
What do you think was the root cause of why my day was not so smooth? Was it the chain text? Was it the devil? Was it me? Was everyone plotting against me? To be honest I don’t think it was none of them. I believe that the Lord was trying to show me something and speak to me but because I was so caught up in my own wants, I missed it. As you read through my story I didn’t mention the accidents I missed by staying late at work, I didn’t mention how happy my co-workers were that I was able to bring them one step closer to solving an issue that will determine the companies budget next month. I didn’t mention how happy the two people were to know that they will be able to complete their assignment on time by allowing me to review their reports before Monday. I didn’t mention that my manager was proud of me stepping up and taking care of the assignments given to me. I didn’t mention any of those things because my mind wasn’t able to see it until now. My day might have not went the way I wanted it to but it went the way it needed to go to work in my favor. That was God working behind the scenes the whole time but I didn’t see it. While I was going through, I thought it was the devil trying to ruin my day. He might have had his moments but most of it wasn’t.
Therefore, my encouragement to you when you might have one of those days when nothing goes the way you want it to—remember God might be changing it around to work in your favor and He might even be trying to teach you a lesson. Today I learned a lot of patience; I learned to deal with things under a lot of pressure and to take what I do seriously. Because I kept a lot of my emotions inside, people were amazed that I didn’t scream under the pressure and issues.
Take a look at your day and see the message it was sending your way—it might be a message from God.
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