ALL THAT I GAINED

Had I known the path this road would lead, I would have turned back

I seen this coming, this pain and sorrow, feeling lost and never found

If I could have looked into my future and known Your plans for me

I would have crumbled and fell to pieces at all that I did see

But as it hit me and my heart did falter and my spirit did grow weak

I hit my knees and cried to You, Lord, with all my heart Your will did I seek

Morning after morning and day after day I prayed for Your love and grace

I begged for comfort and for mercy and for You to take me out of this place

I prayed for Your healing to settle upon me, every moment did I plead

And as I trudged along this journey I was certain You would see my need

I just knew you would rescue me from this heartache and come and save the day

These mighty foes that I did face I was waiting for You to come and slay

But everyday as I awoke the pain and the destruction was all I would see

My heart still cried out to the Lord, “My Father, do You even hear me?”

Because I was certain that by now that all my pain would be gone

I just knew as night had brought sorrow that You would finally send the dawn

I had prayed for You to carry me over and to put my feet on brand new ground

But yet I still feel as I’m sinking when I survey the destruction that is on the mound

Yet in Your gentle way you spoke and with a mighty voice You said,“

My child quit looking behind and around and begin to look ahead.”

So “do not fear for I am with you” I always have been and always will be

Now when I feel as though I’m dying I remember You gave me the key

To unlock my weights and burdens and guilt and shame that I carried around

For once I was looking to end my suffering and that was what was keeping me bound

For I must go through this, there is no way over, but You are right here by my side

You know my tears and all my sorrows because You came to earth and suffered and died

So change my heart and make me see that I can’t escape the pain

But because of my tears and all my losses, Your unfailing love did I gain!