I am going to get a little personal in this blog entry only because this was a lesson I had to learn the hard way. After learning it the hard way I have decided to share it with you, so maybe you can take notes and stare away from this type of situation.
For few months now, there was a person in my life that was weighing me down and hindering me from moving forward in the Lord. Every time I would take a step forward the person would just drag me back down. I was stuck in the same spiritual level for months because I was afraid of letting go of this person.
I would cry out to the Lord, asking him what is hindering my progress in Him. The Lord will show me the exact person but I would ignore what I saw and kept holding on to what I thought I need. I felt as though I needed this person in my life—when I didn’t.
As the months would go on my spiritual life decreased and I was so weak emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. My whole life was being affected by the situation. I went on fasting, prayed to the Lord for a fresh anointing and help me to move forward in Him. Throughout the whole situation the Lord kept telling me to let go of this person. But because of my stubborn nature I refused and held on them for months.
I went into depression. I was stressed out every day. I could barely sleep at night. I wanted to be set free of the bondage I caused myself to be in but I didn’t wan to let go of the person. I became very confused and frustrated with myself.
Then on top of that I had the nerve to blame God for being stressed out and going into depression. I would sit there and ask him “why?” This went on in my life for almost a year and half.
I was telling the Lord to take away what was hindering me to move forward but when He tried to take it, I was almost fighting Him to give it back to me. Yes, I know that was crazy but it didn’t seem like it at the moment. While I was going through this, I was so “suck on stupid.” My goodness! I knew that this person only came into my life for a season but I was trying to keep him permanently. For a side note, you can’t turn someone that is seasonal into someone permanent- it just won’t work out, you will only end up hurting yourself in the process.
So after months of dealing with this person and being badly hurt emotionally and spiritually, the Lord return to me in a dream one night and told me to read Psalm 32. I had no idea what that scripture was about. I woke up, read the scripture, this was the verse that got my attention, “I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye. Be ye not as the horse or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee. (Psalm 32:8-9)” Wow! This blew me away. I was on my knees repenting and crying out to the Lord for forgiveness.
While I was on my knees in prayer with the Lord, I opened my hand in the spirit and released the person I was holding on to. That day I felt so good. It was like an extremely heavy load lifted off my life. The anointing that I haven’t felt in months came back that same day. Man I was walking around my apartment just speaking in tongues and worshipping the Lord like never before. Ever since that day my life has been completely changed, it felt like the day I received the Holy Ghost. I felt refreshed, free, my focus was totally on the Lord and I just didn’t care for anything else but to do the will of the Lord.
Letting go of that person was really hard for me to do and it took a while. But I am glad I eventually listen to the voice of the Lord and Let go.
This is just a testimony I have decided to share with you all. Please be careful of the people you allow in your life, not everyone that comes into your life is from the Lord or is there to stay permanently. We should try to follow the voice of the Lord and let go when He tells us to. Don’t hold on to anyone that is damaging your spiritual life. It could be a person that says they are your best friend, family members, partners, etc… When God gets ready to use you and tells you to let go—don’t be afraid to follow His lead. Anything we are not willing to let go, as become our god or idol. There shouldn’t be anything in our life that we cherish so much that we can’t let go for the Lord.
The situation I went through caused me to go through an emotional roller coaster. There was a point where I had low self-esteem, stressed, depressed, and became suicidal because I had refused to listen to the voice of God—telling me to Let Go. Now today, if you are in a similar situation where you are holding on to something or someone that you know is not good for your spiritual growth---let go in faith and you will see the rewards.
LET GO AND LET GOD!
For few months now, there was a person in my life that was weighing me down and hindering me from moving forward in the Lord. Every time I would take a step forward the person would just drag me back down. I was stuck in the same spiritual level for months because I was afraid of letting go of this person.
I would cry out to the Lord, asking him what is hindering my progress in Him. The Lord will show me the exact person but I would ignore what I saw and kept holding on to what I thought I need. I felt as though I needed this person in my life—when I didn’t.
As the months would go on my spiritual life decreased and I was so weak emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. My whole life was being affected by the situation. I went on fasting, prayed to the Lord for a fresh anointing and help me to move forward in Him. Throughout the whole situation the Lord kept telling me to let go of this person. But because of my stubborn nature I refused and held on them for months.
I went into depression. I was stressed out every day. I could barely sleep at night. I wanted to be set free of the bondage I caused myself to be in but I didn’t wan to let go of the person. I became very confused and frustrated with myself.
Then on top of that I had the nerve to blame God for being stressed out and going into depression. I would sit there and ask him “why?” This went on in my life for almost a year and half.
I was telling the Lord to take away what was hindering me to move forward but when He tried to take it, I was almost fighting Him to give it back to me. Yes, I know that was crazy but it didn’t seem like it at the moment. While I was going through this, I was so “suck on stupid.” My goodness! I knew that this person only came into my life for a season but I was trying to keep him permanently. For a side note, you can’t turn someone that is seasonal into someone permanent- it just won’t work out, you will only end up hurting yourself in the process.
So after months of dealing with this person and being badly hurt emotionally and spiritually, the Lord return to me in a dream one night and told me to read Psalm 32. I had no idea what that scripture was about. I woke up, read the scripture, this was the verse that got my attention, “I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye. Be ye not as the horse or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee. (Psalm 32:8-9)” Wow! This blew me away. I was on my knees repenting and crying out to the Lord for forgiveness.
While I was on my knees in prayer with the Lord, I opened my hand in the spirit and released the person I was holding on to. That day I felt so good. It was like an extremely heavy load lifted off my life. The anointing that I haven’t felt in months came back that same day. Man I was walking around my apartment just speaking in tongues and worshipping the Lord like never before. Ever since that day my life has been completely changed, it felt like the day I received the Holy Ghost. I felt refreshed, free, my focus was totally on the Lord and I just didn’t care for anything else but to do the will of the Lord.
Letting go of that person was really hard for me to do and it took a while. But I am glad I eventually listen to the voice of the Lord and Let go.
This is just a testimony I have decided to share with you all. Please be careful of the people you allow in your life, not everyone that comes into your life is from the Lord or is there to stay permanently. We should try to follow the voice of the Lord and let go when He tells us to. Don’t hold on to anyone that is damaging your spiritual life. It could be a person that says they are your best friend, family members, partners, etc… When God gets ready to use you and tells you to let go—don’t be afraid to follow His lead. Anything we are not willing to let go, as become our god or idol. There shouldn’t be anything in our life that we cherish so much that we can’t let go for the Lord.
The situation I went through caused me to go through an emotional roller coaster. There was a point where I had low self-esteem, stressed, depressed, and became suicidal because I had refused to listen to the voice of God—telling me to Let Go. Now today, if you are in a similar situation where you are holding on to something or someone that you know is not good for your spiritual growth---let go in faith and you will see the rewards.
LET GO AND LET GOD!
I praise God for your new found freedom in Him. This is an awesome testimony for you and will definintely bless others.
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